
Today we went to the Holocaust Museum. By the time I was at the last level of the museum, I just gave up and left. I could not take seeing another dead body and hearing about how horrible it was anymore. It is great that there is such a spectacular place to remember those lost and those that suffered at the hands of such tyrants but I could only take so much. I think my favorite part of it was the hundred of shoes they had piled up. The quote above them read something like "We are survivors of the holocaust. We are only survivors because we are made of leather and not flesh and blood." It was quite intense to think of all the souls that walked in those shoes. We were also given a little identification card upon entering of a person that was in the holocaust. I picked a male thinking the story might be more interesting since I knew most women and children were killed before others. As you go through the museum you are supposed to flip the page to hear the next part of "your person's" life story. By the time I finished my reading my identification card, I was dead. But my son lived cause I sent him away.
It was also really strange for me to hear about not just Hitler but all the Germans that stood for such mess. I also read many statements and quotes about those that were not actively involved in the NAZI party but that did nothing to either help or resist it. My mother is a full blooded German which makes me half. More than what a lot of people can say these days as there are so few people that are full blooded anything now. I have always been proud of my German heritage and still am, but would not have told a soul in there that I was German. It seemed as if I thought maybe I should feel ashamed, but I'm not. My friend from Europe went with us and we were talking about it. She said that Germans are still really hated around many parts of Europe and that Europeans do not hold a kind light up to Germans because of what happened. However, as history has shown Germans also tend to feel better than others and entitled to things that most nationalities don't even think about. A quote from Hitler I saw really struck me as I walked around that huge museum. It was out of a book of policies that Germans should enact on those from inferior races. It states, "... and the doctrine that it is divine law to obey the Germans." Then, just a little while later, I was passing through a doorway and on the side, I pass a Mezuzah. Those that know me know that I dated a reformed Jew for over 5 years. I thought of his family often in there. How kind they always were to me, their willingness to let me participate in Shabbot dinner, hearing the shabbot prayer, and seeing the mezuzah that would always be nailed into the entry to their house. And then, knowing that I am very much german, gave me a weird feeling.A torn feeling.
Anyhow, after hours at the museum we ventured to see the Capitol building and on the way passed the Supreme Court and many other regal buildings that look like a cheap knock off of what I think old Rome would look like. It was kind of ammusing when I was thrown into a picture with an Asian family. I remember being in Indonesia and them just being fascinated with white people; always wanting a picture with you thinking that you were famous. Well, yesterday, I'm standing by the Capitol and an Asian man speaking no English just says, "picture picture" pointing to his little daughter. So, I oblige and let him snap several pictures of me and his daughter with the Capitol behind us before his wife comes to take the camera and asks that I continue to stay so she can get pictures of her husband and another daughter that jumped over to take pictures with me as well. I just smiled and let them take their pictures. It was kinda fun. Then we went to botanical gardens and walked around before venturing back to our hotel. I didn't get to join any cool protests while at the Capitol, but that wasn't for lack of trying. There just were none going on.

Later that night, my friend and I met her friend from the Slovackian Embassy and went to a nice supper. We got in our nice black cocktail dresses and I finally felt like I fit in. You can SOOOO tell that we're a bunch of West Coast slobs in our flip flops and hippie attire. Everyone here, regardless of the heat, is in black pencil skirts, pen striped suits, nylons, dressy heals, and fitted vests. I can't imagine how these women walk for blocks and blocks in their heals. Everywhere you go, it looks as if sophistication just ooozes out of these people; or at least they all hold super important jobs. Oh yeah, another thing I have noticed that is different then the west coast is the use of Ipods in public places. So many people; old, young, business suits, sweats, jogging outfits, have ipods on. Wonder if they all just walk around listening to music or if they have a streaming news station playing. Can't imagine these old business men walking around listening to Frank Sinatra staight off of work. Who knows. But, dinner was great. The place we went was famous for their margaritas and so super busy. The food was amazing, and finally feeling a little bit of sophistication myself in my black dress was great!
